When ever you think you get out of the black hole of life and then it just pulls you right back in. It seems I always miss my chance. It is there I just miss it or cant close and get stuck in the "friends" zone. Or I just think I am in the friends zone and don't want to push it. Crazy.
The real Shock Jocks and heros are people like Glenn Beck, Shawn Hannity, and Rush Limbaugh speaking the truth and opening eyes. Trying to wake up the american people!
mmmm last week going to enjoy it before school starts and I have to buckle down. Do what I can and we will see what happens. Listening to Queen the greatest rock ballads of all time even love rock ballads lol. I need to sleep later.
I am at a cross roads literally it is kind of funny in a way you know to be where I am now. Reflecting on the things I have done and what might be in the Future I would have to say there are more regrets there than I would want. Indecision or fear of something plaguing every corner another turn and it pops up seemingly out of nowhere. Will I ever get it right will that "moment" happen for me? I even have questions to ask myself it is sad really if you think about it. If my life were made into a movie I probably be a supporting character in it taking a back seat to others which is odd some may say that means you are a relatively good person. I think it just makes me a relatively submissive person. In the scheme of things though all is as it should be I suppose. Life and death not meaning less depending on your beliefs. In fact death in some aspects is more important as you continue your journey which is a cycle of the living and nonliving worlds. But what is real known as real that which my senses sense such as a gunshot wound or a nail in the hand? Or the food I eat, or that sound I hear? Is what I even see real? Life is so fucked up and so many get screwed over with shitty jobs, working with crappy people, and dealing with crappy people all the time. All we can do is try and throw that shit away and start again hopefully ending up with something better. When boils down to it what are we going to do? Sit around and write on the computer all day or improve our lives?
